Fraught

Soaked in partisan 

Slaps lungs tangled up with heart beats

Lost to stubbled life

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In her sleeves drowned
bees drift in freeze dried hair
Someday fear will come
she will not die when it’s fair

When words fester 
chaos can be counted on
to show up dressed as grief
Curled into sleepless nights

under your sleeping bagged eyes
uncomfortably restricted thoughts
tossed dreams against your lashes

As she begins to absorb your passion
clarity and strength
emboldened in hilarity 
honoured to carry you
under her eyes
sleep well
wise friend.

Pot Bound

My outgrown tangled roots
are bound for a bigger pot
always

Tradition states my choice…
and it’s two sizes too small
as they say
so the moment I’d settled
my roots had already grown out
left most untidily tangled

To be frank, I’m tired
after two times too many plantings
my leaves droop as I fight for space
against myself, to be sure

but I’m frighted of a too big pot
one in which I might get lost
what if the edge is far away?
so I can’t find it
to sit decisive-like and say
“I’m clearly too big for this pot
I must make myself smaller”

On Forgiveness

We must understand
The need to
demand
support and forgiveness
of ourselves
Before we are able to
give
support and forgiveness

We are not yet able to be
kind
to each other
because we are not yet able to be kind
to ourselves

We must practice
our appreciation and support
for ourselves
And we must practice dutifully
our appreciation and support
for each other

For change to happen
Our daughters, our sisters, our neighbours and their daughters
our mothers and their mothers
must learn how
to forgive themselves
For change to happen

Forgive our inner voices and
all the inner voices
we can’t hear
but assume are unpleasant
because we believe
those negative thoughts
of ourselves

we are due for something better

We need to listen
to words without judgement
we need to lift each other up
by speaking the truth respectfully

and then

We must believe each other
and allow this learning to happen
with support, tolerance,
understanding and forgiveness.

it’s time

As I Wash dishes with my Cat

As I wash dishes
I watch my cat
chase spring bees
with her chattering eyes

Petroleum focused wonderings
to chase away the soap

what I mean when I
think gas is I’m confused
(a little angry also)

and what I mean when I
think confused
is somewhat
willfully bubbled from
backlit information
shot at me from
the gun in my hands

I don’t want to know gas
is 88.5 in the city and
100kms to the west it’s 105.9

I want to think it has
to be that way
the cost of a life under cover
in some idea of paradise
or just some one’s home town
to escape after school is over.

Some laugh strategic
the greedy game of life
is owned by the few who invented
Fox news and celebrity idols
who shout, point and giggle that
change is impossible the world
is too horrible

I hate washing dishes
that cat hates the bees
she’ll never catch
but it’s just a screen between
what she wants and her
forced reality

Literary rebel (on attending my second poetry reading)

Alone
In the back row
Literary rebel without a fuck
To stream

the right look act
like I fit in like I belong to this misfit

team
is this what being a part of this world means?? 

I don’t get it 
I don’t belong here
Like you said 
At the beginning 
On your show

With smart words meant to evoke false emotion fake laughter trolling for jokes it makes me angry 

Actually

Make your Memories!

Memories are manufactured
With a lens and a stage

life
captured to reflect perfection 
where red eyed mistakes are

cleared
where the baby is always asleep
in a boot or a shell or dressed in cute things
because it’s obvious small miracles don’t make memories like baby bumblebees do

Marriages aren’t memories until
the fated humans are bathed in sacred light filtered through black and white

Sacrificed 
their day for memories with
plasticized smiles left to hang on reality’s  wall while strangers search for love in plastic eyes and the human they’ve created begs for attention with please-tell -me -no cries.